小凱的三子人生

三年前，去了瑞士一趟，當年的我甚至不確定自己是不是要有個孩子，
但是看到瑞士經典純手工製音樂盒時，我腦海中浮現的畫面是...
媽媽在女兒出嫁的前一晚，從塵封的箱子裡，拿出了一個音樂盒，對著女兒說：
這是你的外婆在我出嫁的前一晚送給我的，小時候你只要哭鬧不休，
我打開音樂盒，你就會睜著咕嚕轉的大眼睛，仔細的聽著音樂盒裡流洩而出的音符，
現在我把它送給你... 希望以後你看到音樂盒就會想起媽媽...
就這樣，我買下了一個花掉我一個月薪水的音樂盒，準備送給我未來的小孩~




三年後，我如願生下了妳，我的孩子，小圓...
妳會每天在我回家的時候，因為看到我而興奮漲紅的臉龐，對著我軟軟柔柔的喊聲媽咪～
想到以後我可能為你披嫁紗，我就忍不住紅了眼眶，多麼希望時間就停留在這一刻...


今天去看了著名百老匯歌舞劇改編的電影Mamma Mia!，劇中Meryl Streep在女兒Sophie要出嫁的前一刻，
對著女兒唱的歌，讓我跟老公都激動落淚，看完出來，老公在我耳邊說了一句... 陳小圓以後不能出嫁！

Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning
一早(女兒)她拎著書包要離開家
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile...
帶著心不在焉地笑容，揮手跟我說再見⋯
I watch her go with a surge of that well-known sadness
我看著她離開，心中湧起那股熟悉的惆悵
And I have to sit down for a while
我無力地必須坐下一會
The feeling that I'm losing her forever
那是一種我將永遠失去她的感覺
And without really entering her world
甚至還未真正進入她的世界
I'm glad whenever I can share her laughter
我多麼歡欣，每當我可以分享她的笑聲
That funny little girl
這可愛有趣的小女孩

Slipping through my fingers all the time
時間總飛快在我指縫中流逝
I try to capture every minute
我好想抓住每分每秒
The feeling in it
每個感受
Slipping through my fingers all the time
時間總飛快在我指縫中流逝
Do I really see what's in her mind
我真的知道她在想甚麼嗎?
Each time I think I'm close to knowing
每當我覺得更了解她了
She keeps on growing
她卻從未停止長大
Slipping through my fingers all the time
時間總飛快在我指縫中流逝

Sleep in our eyes, her and me at the breakfast table
在早餐桌上，我倆都睡眼惺忪
Barely awake, I let precious time go by
幾乎還未清醒的，我就這樣讓寶貴的時間溜走
Then when she's gone there's that odd melancholy feeling
當她離開，才陷入這樣的愁思
And a sense of guilt I can't deny
還有無法否認的愧疚感
What happened to those wonderful adventures
我曾經答應過她的冒險之旅呢?
The places I had planned for us to go
計畫著要一起去的那些地方
(slipping through my fingers all the time)
時間總飛快在我指縫中流逝
Well, some of that we did but most we didn't
那些曾一起做過的，及更多還未實現的
And why I just don't know
只為了無謂的理由?

Slipping through my fingers all the time
時間總飛快在我指縫中流逝
I try to capture every minute
我好想抓住每分每秒
The feeling in it
感受它
Slipping through my fingers all the time
時間總飛快在我指縫中流逝
Do I really see what's in her mind
我真的知道她在想甚麼嗎?
Each time I think I'm close to knowing
每當我覺得更了解她了
She keeps on growing
她卻從未停止長大
Slipping through my fingers all the time
時間總飛快在我指縫中流逝

Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
有時我希望我可以凍結每個畫面
And save it from the funny tricks of time
保存著不讓時間帶走
Slipping through my fingers...
(時間)悄悄從我指尖溜走

Schoolbag in hand she leaves home in the early morning
一早她拎著書包要離開家
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile...
帶著心不在焉地笑容，揮手跟我說再見⋯
(歌詞感謝Vicky提供)